Enjoy observing everything that comes before you. Thank you Vicky, I will. I have been feeling a lot of tension this week so it's very confirming that that's what week 3 is all about and this morning's session was very supportive in bringing me back to my body and allow myself to simply observe what's going on for me. I still have such a racy mind which I know is just my spirit resisting the repose and surrender, but I'm really appreciating the commitment that I have to connecting to my body through this modality and everything else I do to support that and how there's less and less bashing when I do check out and just keep coming back with no judgement and learning more and more to feel how amazing it feels to be in that loving quality of stillness, and how much greater that is than the rush or checking out. And whenever I do, just keep observing it and understanding why - because it's so amazing and I have been in a momentum of not feeling that amazing for so long! I love how much more settled I feel when I'm in presence and am just going to focus on that today and this week. Thank you. Love, Robbie
Robbie I adore your honesty thanks for sharing. I'm having difficulty in hearing Vicky on the recording my volume is turned right up and I have to say it is interfering with my ability to let go because I'm concentrating so much on catching what is being said. Having said that I have had one day where I just wanted to eat anything and everything just crazy hungry so just observing that I don't want to feel everything around me but dull my awareness down again. There is so much going on with energies at the moment there is still a reluctance in me to just observe rather than react and eat.
I look forward very much to the sessions each week. What I have found is that when I reflect back on my themes that I have nominated at the beginning of each program, I can see within each week the movement that has occurred in relation to these themes. Sometimes it is subtle and sometimes very obvious but these magic of God moments never cease to amaze me. They are very beautiful but not always comfortable to observe and feel, but the thing I am growing more and more used to is that they are always marking a growth; the 'what's next' step for me to take, where as in the past I would beat myself up and think I was failing/doing something wrong when things were not going smoothly. So a big heartfelt thank you to myself for allowing this communication to come through, albeit, by drip filter!!! but also and very importantly, thank you Vicky for providing such an amazing modality with such love and care. xoxo
Today I nurtured myself by sleeping in a little, after some interruptions last night with my son into bed as well as to the EY session last night. I felt my own energy especially in my hands and in my feet and breathed my own breath. There was anxiety and disturbance and tension, perhaps having to discuss a learning difficulties report with my son's teacher this morning, some exhaustion from the weekend and the holding myself in stillness in emotional provocation during the weekend. I regained my steadiness through the work day by keeping my mind with my tasks and remembering to be light but also listening to my body. Unwaveringly. When it was time to be light and disengage from a task, I listened and did not hesitate but honoured that impulse, instead of pushing into greater intensity. I trusted the task would still be there, to pick up, lightly. I acknowledged and honoured the feelings I felt and the emotions passing through and made a conscious effort to do this and to let them go.
I nurtured in the morning with a shower that was neither too long nor too short, and still made it to the early meeting on time. And in the evening, instead of going to the kitchen, I nurtured myself with another shower and warm clothes and catching up on my journal.
It also felt beautiful to remembering week 3 last week, and an intense and ongoing headache / migraine which seemed at times very uncomfortable, but after my morning EY session I found the space, in the midst of the day, and all my tasks, to be with that discomfort and pain lightly and also to be with the grace of the movements of my body and the spaciousness and stillness that this created. It was like being in a palace, despite the discomfort which seemed so much more mild. And I was able to hold myself there, seeing, that it is allowing this space into my life that matters, not being in bed or checking out. This space is always there. No matter what.
What we write, what we say, what we share is all a type of movement. This is a space to share your observations, your experiences and your awareness from your Esoteric Yoga program and your relationship with stillness.